At some point along the way, I lost my gusto for making videos. It's never good when a fun, creative thing starts to feel like work. But there is also a fine line between naturally moving away from a project/idea and just flat out giving up because it's hard. I was in the latter category and I didn't want to let myself get away with that. So I'm resolute in the continuation of making videos through my very last stop (however long it takes!)
But I've learned a few things from waiting so long to make this one.
Sometimes a little space is good.
It was fun going through all the footage because I hadn't just experienced it. It also makes it easier to leave footage I was previously attached to on the cutting room floor (do I have the editor lingo down yet?) I'm such a novice when it comes to thinking like an editor/using the software that I find myself getting insanely frustrated. What's in my head is not always what's coming across on the screen and I hate that. Which leads me to my next revelation.
Sometimes I let fear take over my creative process.
You can't mess it up if you never start. The beginning of making these videos has consistently been my least favorite part. But I've had an almost final cut of this video ready for a month and I just sat on it because I thought it wasn't good enough to show anyone. I find myself thinking about how other people could do it better or wishing I had the skills to execute the way I see it in my mind. But the truth is, I am not a videographer or an editor and that's fine! I shoot these things on a damn iPhone! They're supposed to be fun. Taking them so seriously is what is making them feel like work.
The song that I use showed up on one of my Spotify daily mixes and I immediately fell in love with it. It wasn't until late in my editing that I realized just how much I connected to the lyrics (you can read them here and you'll see what I mean.) The truth is, Austin isn't represented that much in this video. Those months were lonely and I wasn't feeling very inspired to document them. But the drive from Texas to LA was equally as grueling as it was incredible so that footage plays a big part in this one. I played this song so many times that it now feels like a soundtrack written for that specific moment in my life. Which, when I think about it, is the entire goal of these videos.
So there it is, goal accomplished. Moment captured. Onto the next one.