A few weeks ago my friends/current roommates Emma and Sean asked me if I wanted to join them on their trip to Detroit to see a show. One of their friends wasn't able to come anymore so they had an extra ticket, an extra space at the AirBnB and they were driving. Not to mention my roommate from Boston was going to be there too! All the stars aligned and I said yes.
In this moment, I realized this trip is changing my state of being. Normally I would overthink things, find a reason that it didn't make sense to go, and opt out. I had a moment during the Sigur Rós show where I was staring at the insanely gorgeous ceiling of the Fox Theater (pictured above) thinking,
"How did I get here?"
How did I find myself in Detroit, at this show with 8 amazing people (5 of which were strangers to me) having this crazy, fun weekend? I wanted to burst out laughing. I was delighted! What a glorious fringe benefit of being on this trip. I feel so free. Free to change the plan. Free to go with the flow. Free to say yes.
There is something so powerful in this. Sometimes it feels as if I'm suspended above real life unburdened by the things that come with a daily routine. This is not a feeling I want forever but it allows everything to feel low stakes. For now, no routine means no rut. I have absolutely nothing to lose. No better place to be. No expectations. This is the feeling I was after. And here it is, in Detroit of all places.