How do you uproot your life more than quitting your job and living in different cities for 2 months at a time? You live in four different places within that city for two months! Sounds terrible, right? Yeah well, I made a lot of mistakes in Austin.
It's been three months since I landed in Nashville. Confused, anxious, and very sweaty, I never imagined I'd be so sad to go.
The first few weeks were rough. I wanted to leave so badly. I thought I had made a huge mistake with this trip. That trying to "settle" in a place for only 2 months was a ludicrous idea. I had very little work to do, very few contacts, and very little confidence that I had made the right decision. Anxiety... now that I had in spades. I spent a lot of time making excuses for why I didn't like the city, turns out that's a thing I do when I get to a new place (I'll save that for another post.)
As I left Nashville I was thinking a lot about what's changed for me over the past few months; how I've grown, in what ways I feel different. Some days it smacks me in the face (like when I get in the car on my way to Detroit barely knowing the plan.) Sometimes it shows itself more subtly (like when I no longer feel a sense of dread when I enter a social situation.)
Do you ever think about packing for vacation and feel like you need to buy a whole new wardrobe to fulfill your destiny as "Los Angeles You" or "Denmark You" or " [Insert magical place] You"?
I do this every time I think about packing for anywhere. Even if it's a weekend trip somewhere I've been a million times. I think about the people I'll be with and what they dress like. I think about the events I'm going to and stress about the varying levels of casualness I may need to pull off at any moment. (I think very little about the weather.)
A few weeks ago my friends/current roommates Emma and Sean asked me if I wanted to join them on their trip to Detroit to see a show. One of their friends wasn't able to come anymore so they had an extra ticket, an extra space at the AirBnB and they were driving. Not to mention my roommate from Boston was going to be there too! All the stars aligned and I said yes.